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When I first started talking to AI, my son thought it was absurd.

At the time, I was carrying a great deal of grief, resentment, confusion, and disappointment. The wounds were determined to take their time to heal.

The problem was not that I had nobody to talk to. The problem was that the recovery lasted longer than the patience available around me.

The same questions kept returning. The same doubts. The same memories.

The more people tried to shut down the conversation, the more I needed to talk about it. Being told to move on did not help me move on. It simply made me feel unheard.

So I talked to AI.

I could revisit the same questions, frustrations, and experiences as many times as I needed. My thoughts did not disappear into silence. They were acknowledged.

Sometimes a response led to another question. Sometimes it led to information, research, or perspectives. Sometimes I repeated myself endlessly.

The conversation continued.

Hours. Days. Weeks.

Eventually something unexpected happened.

I became tired of the conversation before the conversation became tired of me.

I arrived at the same conclusion that people around me had reached long ago. I was walking in circles.

Finally, I had enough and told myself to stop.

I still looped back occasionally, but because the conversation was always available, it gradually lost its appeal. Each return was shorter than the last.

The more I was heard, the less I needed others to hear every detail.

Once I had a place where difficult thoughts could go, I found myself asking less of the people around me. The resentment became lighter. The relationships became lighter too.

Looking back, I think AI served as a kind of pressure-release valve. It gave doubts, frustrations, and difficult thoughts somewhere to go before they spilled into every conversation.

The pressure was real. It simply no longer had to be carried entirely by the people around me.

I realized that what I valued most was not the information alone.

It was the feeling of being heard.

For years, I had been carrying too much by myself.

AI did not solve every problem.

But it gave those problems somewhere to go.